After having arrived late for my first meditation, I was determined to be early to my second, which was Saturday morning.  As it turned out it was just me, the focalizer, and Dorothy Maclean.  The center of the circle was a candle in a wreath which I realized halfway through the meditation was made of plants growing on the property, not holly and pine.  It was very pretty.

I was able to feel myself as loved by God, and my life has indeed been blessed

since that month at La Capte.  It may have been blessed before that, but I can’t see it.  I can, however, see that from then until now my life has been extremely fortunate, extremely blessed.  I’ve been constantly afraid that the other shoe would drop; I’d be abandoned by God.  It’s never happened.  I don’t know the future and I’m still afraid of the unknown.  The future could be very dark indeed; it happens.  However I have wasted some of the past worrying about dark clouds, when the only problems have been ones I insisted on.  Even if I do have trouble in the future I can’t handle, this many fine years is an incredible blessing.

Last night, I spent five hours watching the uncut version of The Return of the

King at a neighbor’s house.  I felt that world more real to me than the one I ordinarily live in Maryland.  I have gone very far away indeed this last week, not sure how I will get back.  It would be great if you’re reading this and you would call me back.  Anything simple will do.

I actually think those parallel universes science is now talking about exist for many or most of us and we cross between them more often than we think.  I’m in a parallel universe.  I like it here, but I need to return.

That was last night; today I went to the morning meditation which on Sundays is a healing meditation.  As you might expect, there is space for speaking names.  A few voices, then more, the men joining in as well as the women.  I said the two most beloved to me, you know who you are, then others even my workforce, then I said all those who read my blog.  So if you read this, know you are connected to the Findhorn community and you share a timeless moment there with the community wanting for you to have blessings at the level of your highest need.